9 Days to go!

Tuesday 7th May
Grog and night sweats again, feel like a broken record, seems this is how I am starting most days! I did however refrain from drinking yesterday (Yay me!) Eating, on the other hand, not so much. The power nap I had yesterday meant I wasn’t tired so I ended up reading until gone midnight. Reading The Witness by Caroline Mitchell, was so close to the end I just had to finish, so close being about halfway but I kept putting it down, trying to sleep and wondering what happens next.

Tear myself out of bed, not going to bother weighing or measuring myself, it will only make today worse.

Getting ready for work, the husband is spraying stuff all over the bathroom, hes in the for ages spraying bleach and cleaner and god knows what else, I hope hes not getting high?

Get a lift with him to the station, its still a 10 minute walk from where we park the car. Sun is shining, could be a good day after all.

Get on my train, its packed with children, I think they might be French, they’re just standing around in the doorway, so at least I still get a seat, seems so noisy on this carriage?! Good job I have Made in Chelsea to watch on my journey in.
Its my first day working here without my friend, its going to be strange. Trying to be positive, no good thinking the worst, wont make me feel any better.