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A Mood Awakening
Another week, another mood…or two
I feel like my moods are a bit of Russian roulette at the moment. When will the gun go off?
Last Friday, after an anxious week of worrying about the fact my contract had been pushed back a week, I decided to walk to my counselling session. I am well versed by now in self-care, but I am not well versed in the art of patience. I know doing some gentle exercise will help my mindset, but during my walk, I didn’t feel ecstatically after 5 minutes, so I spent the first part of the walk feeling pretty miserable, wishing I had just driven instead. During my walk, the first glimmer of light came about 15 minutes in when I saw this little patch of wildflowers growing by the side of the road. I hadn’t noticed it whilst driving and just seeing that, made me feel a little bit happier.
Just as I was about 5 minutes from my session, the joy of flowers now forgotten, I got a text from my friend, I had referred her for a role on the same contract as me and she had got the job. I was so happy! We would be working together again, for the fourth time! We messaged back and forth and she told me she was starting on the 30th of May. It then occurred to me that I could now start earlier, there had been two start dates offered but I hadn’t been able to as I thought I would have been working my notice period. I quickly emailed the recruiter to see if I could start earlier, before going into my therapy session a bit happier.