Taking the leap?

I normally like to share something I have found inspiring on Instagram for a bit of Monday motivation, but as I sit here at 5 am inthe dark, unable to get back to sleep because “someone” was snoring next to my ear, I thought I would share some of my thoughts instead.

At the moment, I am in a bit of limbo. My current job has hugely affected my mental health, so much so, that I have needed to take some time out. The stress of even doing this manifested in my body and I was stuck in bed for over a week.

It has taken me a few weeks to realise and accept that I can no longer work for this company and that I need to find something else but before I do this, I need to heal my body and mind from this stress.

Some of you may remember I had to take time out from the same company a couple of years ago for the very same reason.

The difference is, last time in addition to the stress, I was also severely depressed. I had no real motivation and certainly did not have the mental strength to contemplate changing jobs, that would have been too much.

This time, I am much stronger mentally and aware of the things I need to have in place to get myself better, I am also going to take this time to think about my next moves in life. Is this the job I want to be doing? Whilst I was working, there seemed hardly any space to breathe, when I wasn’t working, I was thinking about work, it was affecting my sleep and my relationships but I was in so deep, I couldn’t see it.