The War Within Me — Overwhelm, Fear and A Ferocious Battle With Anxiety

When I got back from my holiday, I felt ready to take on the world.

I had finished reading Manifest and did some goal setting whilst laying on a sun lounger in Crete. I was feeling inspired and, dare I say, a bit confident.

The serendipitous events that took place after doing this took me by surprise.

Firstly, as I mentioned in my last post, I saw a job posting that I felt was perfect for me. It was a few hours a week, working remotely and involved a topic I’m passionate about. I applied right there and then without giving it a moment’s thought. It wasn’t until later that I realised that I had felt zero panic, nor did I question my ability to do this job, which is my usual train of thought.

Secondly, after having some conversations with a good friend of mine, I decided to start a little mini-project of my own, something I had been thinking about for a while. This then became a bigger project and is now fully underway, again, the self-doubt that usually materialises was nowhere to be seen.

The latest thing that happened was that I received a message on LinkedIn from someone who was looking for a Copywriter with my specific background. I mean it’s basically a job combining my 20+ years experience and what I am doing now, something I have not yet seen in the market.

My mind went back to the part of Manifest where it talks about taking actionable steps towards your…