What am I so afraid of?

Wednesday 26th January

I’ve been a busy girl, planning, planning and more planning. I’ve booked a mid March birthday dinner with my family, I’ve booked in lunches and dinners galore and I’ve finally booked the spa break with my friend.

I spent some of the weekend looking at Spa hotels all over England, I whittled it down to 6 in various places and sent over to my friend to make a final decision and she chose one in Leamington Spa. After booking I was feeling all excited, so I decided to have a little look and see what else Leamington Spa has to offer, I randomly notice whilst reading about it that six wells had been discovered in the area. Why is this ringing a bell? OMG Tanya mentioned on my Tarot reading that when I went to a retreat, she could see a well of water. Oh My.

On Sunday, it would have been my friends 41st birthday and I had been invited out in the evening with her friends and her mum. It was honestly such a lovely evening, all sharing memories and being together on her special day, at one of her favourites places.

I had no plans on Monday and I was quite please, I felt a bit groggy from all the wine the night before, I had a nice lie in and a pretty chilled out day, we finished succession and I window shopped online.
On Tuesday, I woke up with worst anxiety I have had, possibly ever. My heart was racing, I felt…